Just when I thought I knew.

I thought I knew.
I thought I knew what God was doing in my life and where he was leading me.
I thought I knew who was going to be in my life.
I thought I knew what he wanted me to do.
I didn't know.

So what happens when we think we know what God is saying, and then everything turns out completely different? Does it cause us to doubt? To question everything the Lord has ever told us? To stop asking the Lord for the deepest desires of our hearts? To stop believing he speaks?

That's the worlds response to when something goes wrong. Running away from everything the lord has ever done and questioning everything. By us trying to figure out why God told us something so outlandish only to have it be false. We blame God and we run scared with our tail between our legs. How dare he tell us something that didn't come to fruition.

But why blame God? God doesn't lie and he doesn't tease. He doesn't tell us things for no reason, and he absolutely speaks so clearly.

But here's the thing .

People have choices and God doesn't take those away. So God can lead you in a certain direction and show you the highest for your life but it's always your choice whether or not to follow. He won't make you.

and here's the even bigger thing.

God's not manageable. He's bigger then we can even begin to imagine and he's absolutely not predictable. God could lead us in a direction and we could think we know exactly how it's going to play out and then it could go in the opposite direction. It doesn't mean God lied, or misled us. It could mean any number of things and reasons. It could be for a reason we can't even fathom that things played out the way they did, and we won't ever know why.

Beyond any circumstances or instances that happen, my faith in the Lord is unshakable. I don't want to serve a God that I can manage or contain or predict. He's mysterious for a reason. He sees everything when I only see a piece, and I won't let the small piece I see determine how I react or trust in the lord. I know he loves me and has my best planned out for me. If getting the best means my road is a little bumpy, and that I don't understand the process. Then I choose that rather then going on my own understanding and causing mass chaos in my life.

The lord speaks and he speaks clearly and I trust is voice, in every circumstance and situation.
He's God.