Don't Miss Your Life: loving the in-between

I got a chance to sit with my roommate recently and talk about my heart. The excitement I feel about squad leading such an incredible group of people. How I can’t wait to give away everything I have to give, but that I’m just not there yet. I told her how my heart is here, resting, sitting, and soaking in every moment. That I am all to aware of what Squad Leading entails and how I know my heart will fall in love with this group of people over and over again for the next year of their life. That as much as I love them, I don’t want to miss out on the beauty that is in the in-between.

When life is in constant motion and anticipation of the next thing it’s easy to forget about what’s right in front of you. I have fallen trap to this way of thinking for way longer then I would care to admit. Feeling as though each moment in my life is an anticipation of something greater.

In college it was waiting for real life to start. Once real life started I was waiting for the next adventure. While on an adventure I was waiting for the next time I could just sit and be. Somehow forgetting the beauty of the moment I was in, skipping chunks of life day dreaming of something yet to come.

If you were to look at my life right now you would see that I am in the in-between. Living in Georgia, with no job until I leave to squad lead in September. It would look a whole lot like waiting. Yet, it’s nothing like that. A more accurate depiction of what this time is to me would be soaking.

Soaking in friendships that have been separated for too long. Soaking in the freedom to sit on my couch and write a blog while listening to Young Rebel Set. Staying up late into the night for no other reason then to giggle about guys and drink wine. Soaking in the moments of silence where I can choose to do whatever I feel like.

Taking the time to be present for the people who are directly in front of me, while giving them my full attention and time. Valuing conversations, laughter and joy above getting things done. Finding the hidden treasures in each day, without letting them pass me by.

My time in Georgia has been rejuvenating in every sense of the word. An answer to a prayer I didn’t know I was praying. It has been a time of being myself without any precedent of how that should look. I have had incredible moments of sitting with the Father while he whispers truth and love over me, as well as friends who confirm and call out those truths in my life.

As I press into the relationships in front of me here, I am learning more and more about what it looks like to value peoples time and honor them with my full attention. Though they may seem worlds apart, by being present here I am preparing myself to be present with my squad fully while I am with them. To take advantage of each moment as I am in it, without waiting for the next thing.

 I love that in all the chaos that life entails, I have been handed this gift of time; A gift that I don’t intend to waste. In this season I plan on fully embracing the beauty of the in-between.