I have felt less then my usual self as of recently, so I have decided that instead of sitting in that and focusing on the life I have missed out on while sulking around (It's true I have been sulking. I can blame the beginning on jet lag, the second part on processing, and the most recent on me feeling stuck) that I am going to take proactive measures to get out of this funk.
I sat here for approximately forever, attempting to explain whats been going down around here. The emotions I have felt, the tears I have cried, the arguments I have gotten into (Turns out I still have siblings, and we still don't see eye to eye) but nothing about writing it felt fulfilling or worth sharing. Things still aren't easy it's true, but if that's all I let be known, then that's all I will know.
I don't know about you but I want to be joyful and content in all situations. Right now I am not, and I have struggled to figure out how to be. So from this very second, what I am going to look for is the good. The things that in any situation shine through, whether I have to peel back the layers to discover what it is, or if it is shiny and immediately draws my attention to it.
If I have learned anything in these last couple weeks it's that life is all about perspective. If you are looking for failure, rejection, and lack then that is exactly what you are going to find. I have been looking and finding just that. It's exhausting. It's time to search for the more. The life, passion, love, peace and fun in every situation.
So, Here's the beautiful of my day today.
Spending my day working with my crazy quirky mom, where she treated me to a Peppermint Mocha Latte. Christmas in a cup (The proposal, anyone?)!
Getting to step into a too hot to stand in shower and then curling up with my crocheted blanket (no I did not make it myself) and watching New Girl and some show about a girl named Mindy. Cozy and Hilarious.
It's just the beginning. Again.
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